So I'm going to share something I shared today with others....you who have been reading this thread know about the ritual...but the one's I posted this to do not. As there is a member there who I'm concerned with triggering myself and do not wish to create problems for that person who might have a volatile reaction without prior knowledge.
Some may understand this post some may not. I may get a bit cryptic and really don't mean to.....Some will gains some insights and some will perhaps understand the process of peeling the layers of an ONION in a regressed state. Which is one of the few I've recorded.
When I first sought to find what it was that festering in my current state of being and seek to find some answers several years ago I got TRIGGERED by a word. That word was PTAH. That being said I had some assistance to peel that first layer of the onion. In doing so the very next day I went into a very intense period of physical memory recall. This was the time when the black lines on my hands started. It was primarily benevolent memory in the form of block pixel.
After that I went through a series of memory recall with two people until such time as I was able to do it myself. In fact there were four assigned to me to "take over" four names to take into account. One was the head very adept and talented in many ways assigned to me for assisting in this recall. His name is Artemus. Then there is a "scribe" named Bartholomew. A financial assistant named Mortimer, and a very adept and stealth thief....Eros. My own personal spy. These were the names assigned to me to 'take over'...from there....
After that I was on my own with their assistance when I needed it. any time I need a signature word....I request Bartholomew for it...and get it pronto. Eros will go deep undercover to find such things as the physics I seek to discover what I'm looking for and this is just how it works for me now.
Several days ago I got triggered again...thought it would end in three days but it just lingered on. I realized due to this lingering on....I had not fully peeled the onion back far enough in the beginning. So I decided to do something different and go back to that trigger to get a better view. I found it was rather difficult and those layers are not so easy to peel. Now to go the the ancient past I recall is quite easy...but this current layer is most difficult. This current layer is my PRESENT life and not a past life. I came to realize in part why last night. As starting last night I was able to partially peel some of that layer. It seems and this may be difficult to understand for most...there is a blue "fog" surround me. When I asked why it was said to be for my protection...so I would not be frightened. While I was in the 'blue fog" I felt ice cold water in the pit of my stomach and a pain in the crook of my arm of a very intense nature. And this "blue fog" was a liquid in the color BLUE to keep me in a state of stasis and anesthesia....in Greek means 'without sensation'. Apparently this blue liquid was so thick it leaves a film on the eyes and shades of blue haze and fog is the result. Yet I was partially aware last night of the somewhat uncomfortable pain in my stomach and left arm. Very odd. I asked to see who was around me...but could not focus as the "blue fog" was too intense. Then I was told I could see but due to my own emotional fears was afraid to see. Like it was a 'suggestion' so as not to be afraid.
Now for me not to be able to access this sight was quite unusual for me. As I'm pretty good at viewing. So this tells me I have a deeply rooted "suggestion" not to see this. Now here is where it gets interesting. Last night I was given some intense "light feed"...which is the view of what I'm afraid to see. And just like when I first peeled the onion.....I got a whole lot of information in the form of block pixel then these lines on my hands started up. This time it's light feed which is the VIEW. So it appears when I get the next trigger as I did the next day of the first recall, and I did the last time I will be able to see this light feed in it's full view. So here I sit....waiting for that trigger to occur and I'm now more that ready to view this particular thing on an emotional and intellectual level. My understand from the first layer was benevolent. So why the intense emotional reaction to "viewing"? I'm guessing I should find out soon enough if my emotional body can handle it eh? To be continued..... As this is quite literally a physical in the now part of my life I wish to view. Who are they...I really want to know!
You see.....I was the bad man behind blue eyes in the past.....the
ritual I've spoken of here....to be the bad one....like I do.
Some may understand this post some may not. I may get a bit cryptic and really don't mean to.....Some will gains some insights and some will perhaps understand the process of peeling the layers of an ONION in a regressed state. Which is one of the few I've recorded.
When I first sought to find what it was that festering in my current state of being and seek to find some answers several years ago I got TRIGGERED by a word. That word was PTAH. That being said I had some assistance to peel that first layer of the onion. In doing so the very next day I went into a very intense period of physical memory recall. This was the time when the black lines on my hands started. It was primarily benevolent memory in the form of block pixel.
After that I went through a series of memory recall with two people until such time as I was able to do it myself. In fact there were four assigned to me to "take over" four names to take into account. One was the head very adept and talented in many ways assigned to me for assisting in this recall. His name is Artemus. Then there is a "scribe" named Bartholomew. A financial assistant named Mortimer, and a very adept and stealth thief....Eros. My own personal spy. These were the names assigned to me to 'take over'...from there....
After that I was on my own with their assistance when I needed it. any time I need a signature word....I request Bartholomew for it...and get it pronto. Eros will go deep undercover to find such things as the physics I seek to discover what I'm looking for and this is just how it works for me now.
Several days ago I got triggered again...thought it would end in three days but it just lingered on. I realized due to this lingering on....I had not fully peeled the onion back far enough in the beginning. So I decided to do something different and go back to that trigger to get a better view. I found it was rather difficult and those layers are not so easy to peel. Now to go the the ancient past I recall is quite easy...but this current layer is most difficult. This current layer is my PRESENT life and not a past life. I came to realize in part why last night. As starting last night I was able to partially peel some of that layer. It seems and this may be difficult to understand for most...there is a blue "fog" surround me. When I asked why it was said to be for my protection...so I would not be frightened. While I was in the 'blue fog" I felt ice cold water in the pit of my stomach and a pain in the crook of my arm of a very intense nature. And this "blue fog" was a liquid in the color BLUE to keep me in a state of stasis and anesthesia....in Greek means 'without sensation'. Apparently this blue liquid was so thick it leaves a film on the eyes and shades of blue haze and fog is the result. Yet I was partially aware last night of the somewhat uncomfortable pain in my stomach and left arm. Very odd. I asked to see who was around me...but could not focus as the "blue fog" was too intense. Then I was told I could see but due to my own emotional fears was afraid to see. Like it was a 'suggestion' so as not to be afraid.
Now for me not to be able to access this sight was quite unusual for me. As I'm pretty good at viewing. So this tells me I have a deeply rooted "suggestion" not to see this. Now here is where it gets interesting. Last night I was given some intense "light feed"...which is the view of what I'm afraid to see. And just like when I first peeled the onion.....I got a whole lot of information in the form of block pixel then these lines on my hands started up. This time it's light feed which is the VIEW. So it appears when I get the next trigger as I did the next day of the first recall, and I did the last time I will be able to see this light feed in it's full view. So here I sit....waiting for that trigger to occur and I'm now more that ready to view this particular thing on an emotional and intellectual level. My understand from the first layer was benevolent. So why the intense emotional reaction to "viewing"? I'm guessing I should find out soon enough if my emotional body can handle it eh? To be continued..... As this is quite literally a physical in the now part of my life I wish to view. Who are they...I really want to know!
You see.....I was the bad man behind blue eyes in the past.....the
ritual I've spoken of here....to be the bad one....like I do.
Would love to see the blue lily do that..... 
